Different

There are so many people in this world, there are so many things in this world. Everything is different, every person is different, everyday is different. I see this and wonder, how am I better or worse or extraordinary. Everybody wants to be different or better. We try to do stuff to be better, sometimes it works, sometimes it fails. You may not have many chances you deserve be different but you still try in those little ways you can. This maybe your only chance. You dream, you imagine, knowing that it is the only place you can actually be different.



There are so many people in this world. But why does only one seem better than everyone else? A person you may not even cast a second glance at. Why does that person's faults suddenly don't matter ? Why for you a single ordinary person is so extraordinary now ? Why that person is different for you even though you may never be different for them.

Maybe

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He was behind her or he was in front of her but he was never with her. If he was with her, it was never for long. It was never long enough to be satisfied, long enough to be sure, long enough to be sure and never long enough to be with her.

Ever have that feeling when you see a person that if they knew you, they would love you, understand you, live with you, dream with you, have fun with you and maybe never forget you. She got that feeling when she saw him. Him; walking, laughing, talking, doing all the mad things he does. She was never the girl that boys could talk to effortlessly, she was never the prettiest, she was never the funniest and she was ok with it until he came around and he made her want to all those things just because she wanted him to see her, actually look at her just once.

Everyday she would look at the mirror and sometimes would not even recognize what see saw. She had that feeling that her face is not her own, it felt somehow foreign sometimes. It was a good face but there was nothing extraordinary about it. Maybe that was the problem, maybe her face wasn’t good enough. Everyday after staring at the mirror for longer than necessary thinking that maybe today will be the day when this face will stand out. She would step out again into the world for yet another time waiting, hoping for the world to change.

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Life Is A Road trip

I find life like a road trip. It has a beginning and an end. Everybody is born with a known or sometimes unknown destination or purpose. Your life maybe short or long like a trip to the supermarket or a trip to the other side of a country. Everything is constantly moving but it doesn’t mean that you are seeing the same type of things. A road trip can be a lot of things – exciting, adventurous, boring, sad, happy, depressing, scary, boring and so can be life, it just depends who is driving. Feel free to take risks, do anything you want because you get one road trip like this and you might want to make this one count. 

Change

A minute ago life is dull, static and uneventful. All you want is that to change, you something to happen, something to change because you are unsatisfied with your current situation, it’s boring to you so, you want to change it. It doesn’t happen most of the time but when it does, you are not sure if you want this change anymore. You want to change the change, you want to go back to where you where a minute ago, you realize that life was perfect a minute go and now it isn’t. You only realize this because you can’t have it anymore, you can’t change it no matter what you do.  You imagine a million things you couldn’t have done differently but you only think that because you can’t do them anymore. We are stupid idiots, we look at other people hoping we could have something they have but we don’t realize they maybe thinking the same about us. We want change so bad that we don’t even see that the thing we want to change is the best thing we have. Sometimes it is not even this, some sadder times the change is unwanted and painful. You knew your life was perfect but it isn’t anymore.

What will you do now? How can someone survive this? But know one thing you are brave enough to handle anything that comes your way, if you weren’t it wouldn’t happen to you. You just have to find your power, that thing that makes you the strongest. Many people fail, it doesn’t mean that you would. You are not like everyone.

But if you are one the lucky ones, whose life is the same it was a minute ago. See it, appreciate it, know it and believe in it. If you still don’t like it, change it on your own terms before life does it for you. 

Me And That Feeling

Ever get that feeling after you watch something - a show or anything or you listen to something - line or a song or you read something and there is a sudden urge to do something, in that moment feel you can do anything, you can conquer the world if you want to. You cannot sit on one place, you have to get up and do something. I get this feeling a lot after reading, watching or listening. I don't know what to do with that feeling. The feeling is of pure power and strength. Is that how you get inspired ? I think it is adrenaline I don't know but whenever I get that feeling I find way stand up and I start walking really fast. And then I start imagining myself as a part of the thing I experienced and I feel so happy when I go that and then the feeling goes away. I know I waste that feeling every time it comes to me. I imagine. I do that a lot and because of that I don't really do anything. But when I imagine just for once I have everything I ever wanted and life is perfect and I am happy. Everything is fine and it is where is supposed to be. There is no confusion, no uncertainty, only dreams coming true. That is why I imagine because life is so much better that way. I know imagination is running away from real life and not doing anything. You gain nothing out of it but another load of dreams which you do nothing to fulfill. I mean it is great but it is after all imagination not reality. It makes  you happy but that happiness isn't forever. So, this time when I got that feeling, I wrote this.

Me And I Am

“I am.” It is the shortest complete sentence in English Language. Two little words, these are powerful two little words, alone or if something is added to them. They are used by a person to tell their state or condition of being or their feelings about themselves.

“I am lonely.”  “I am happy.”   “I am fine.”  “I am not fine.”   “I am unhappy.”  “I am in love.”  “I am talentless.”  “I am useless.”  “I am bored.”  “I am not me.”  “I am trying.”  “I am a lair.”  “I am depressed.”  “I am tried.”  “I am not unique.”  “I am helpless.”  “I am not pretty.”  “I am lost.” “I am waiting.”  “I am impatient.” “I am not convinced.”  “I am not in favour.” “I am living.” 


All these statements, sentences, thoughts and many more of them are there. They are always there, floating around somewhere in our mind. But most of the time they are left unspoken. Because we are scared, embarrassed, afraid of the consequences we have to face if we say these words. But these words are demanding to be spoken. But sometimes there may be no one to listen. But in the end, we lose control and the dam breaks - the words keep tumbling out, unstoppable because this words had to said no matter what as these these words demand to said and heard. You want to say them, you want to say what you feel. These powerful; little words can change your life. These words tell how you feel about yourself and it may not always be true. You may need that comforting answer which you deserve. It also starts with a short sentence - “You are.” It is important to know how you feel about yourself but is also important to know what someone else thinks of you because your thoughts may not always be correct. Sometimes, you may be very hard on yourself or you may be too biased.

Sometimes while speaking your mind,  you may change your mind.

“You are not alone.”  “You are not a bad person.”  “You are not at fault.”  “You are special.”  “You are not realising what you have.”  “You are my inspiration.”  “You are not trying hard enough.”  “You are beautiful.”  “You are my friend.”  “You are the person for me.” 

It is the time that it taken in saying these words that makes movies or books or life, long and makes our happy endings look unreachable and unachievable. 

Imagine the whole world, so many people living, walking, going on with their life, moving on, everything is progressing. Everybody has this bubble over their head about things they want to say, things they want to hear, things they want to be, things they be and the bubble keeps moving with them too, it never leaves, it's always there. Full of all your unfinished hopes, aspirations, dreams and vulnerabilities. Sometimes when this bubble finally bursts, your story truly begins. You can call this bubble anything -  your mind, soul, heart, anything. You should realise that it is there when whenever you are alone and you feel this hollowness and you have more to think about the imperfectness of your life than about how great it is -- Find Your Bubble and then don't wait till it is unbearable, take a pin and burst it or it will happen on its own anyway. It may be hard but the first step is always the hardest and rest is as easy as air out of a balloon. If you do it now you will your life a little more.