Maybe

They say that my life is normal; my life is good because there is no drama, heartache, dreams, wishes, special people and a purpose. My life is great because I don’t have to go through all the pain people suffer. But maybe I don’t want a normal life. Maybe I want to feel the pain because before or after the pain was a period of happiness too, I want that. Maybe my life is not so great after all because it has nothing; it is pain, simple and boring. Maybe I want thunder, rain, sunshine, snowfall and hurricanes. People say I am lucky but I think they are lucky because something is happening to them. Someone actually texts and calls them because they miss them or because they just want to talk not because they have some work with you. Maybe I don’t want the most interesting that happened to me yesterday to be about the tasty food I ate. Maybe I just want to life rather than a good life, maybe I just want to live and love, maybe I just want to start my story.

Maybe

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He was behind her or he was in front of her but he was never with her. If he was with her, it was never for long. It was never long enough to be satisfied, long enough to be sure, long enough to be sure and never long enough to be with her.

Ever have that feeling when you see a person that if they knew you, they would love you, understand you, live with you, dream with you, have fun with you and maybe never forget you. She got that feeling when she saw him. Him; walking, laughing, talking, doing all the mad things he does. She was never the girl that boys could talk to effortlessly, she was never the prettiest, she was never the funniest and she was ok with it until he came around and he made her want to all those things just because she wanted him to see her, actually look at her just once.

Everyday she would look at the mirror and sometimes would not even recognize what see saw. She had that feeling that her face is not her own, it felt somehow foreign sometimes. It was a good face but there was nothing extraordinary about it. Maybe that was the problem, maybe her face wasn’t good enough. Everyday after staring at the mirror for longer than necessary thinking that maybe today will be the day when this face will stand out. She would step out again into the world for yet another time waiting, hoping for the world to change.

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Me And That Feeling

Ever get that feeling after you watch something - a show or anything or you listen to something - line or a song or you read something and there is a sudden urge to do something, in that moment feel you can do anything, you can conquer the world if you want to. You cannot sit on one place, you have to get up and do something. I get this feeling a lot after reading, watching or listening. I don't know what to do with that feeling. The feeling is of pure power and strength. Is that how you get inspired ? I think it is adrenaline I don't know but whenever I get that feeling I find way stand up and I start walking really fast. And then I start imagining myself as a part of the thing I experienced and I feel so happy when I go that and then the feeling goes away. I know I waste that feeling every time it comes to me. I imagine. I do that a lot and because of that I don't really do anything. But when I imagine just for once I have everything I ever wanted and life is perfect and I am happy. Everything is fine and it is where is supposed to be. There is no confusion, no uncertainty, only dreams coming true. That is why I imagine because life is so much better that way. I know imagination is running away from real life and not doing anything. You gain nothing out of it but another load of dreams which you do nothing to fulfill. I mean it is great but it is after all imagination not reality. It makes  you happy but that happiness isn't forever. So, this time when I got that feeling, I wrote this.

Me And Music

I can't sing. I can't play an instrument, I tried to but that didn't work. But I listen to songs. Does that mean that I am not a part of the music ? 

Right now, in this moment thousands of people are listening to music right and I am one of them. Aren't we all connected in some way. Music means so many things to so many different people. To some it is a way to earn a living, to some it is an escape, to some it is a drug, to some it is a source of happiness and enjoyment and to some it is life.

These days there are so many forms of music right now and all we are doing is judging what is good or bad. What is on the charts, what sucks and what rocks, what deserves to be popular and heard and what is crap, what gets an award and what doesn't. We all forgot that it is still music. It doesn't matter if some else hates it or loves it, if nobody listens to it unless whenever you are feeling like crap, tried, angry, confused, lonely and even happy or excited - there is always a song you can listen and feel that resonance from your soul and everything will be alright.

Music wasn't meant to counted as many singles or copies have been sold but how many souls it touched or how many people it made happy or how many people people danced alone or together listening to the music coming out.

Sometimes I just lay down and listen to music, any kind of music and after I sit up and turn the music off, I feel better. That is the power of music, that is what music is. I don't care what or which music it is unless it makes it makes me sing along and feel what the music made to feel. I know I can't comment on music like this as I know nothing about it but I listen to it. 

Music is everywhere. In so many different and pure forms too. A mother humming to put her baby to sleep, that is also music, you can't calculate it's worth by how many people listen to it or many awards it has got. It is pure and true, it is music.

I am not against the music on charts, I love those actually. There are some many popular artists and their music is amazing.

There is so many talent in music these days, I mean how many singers and bands actually exist today ? And all these music reality show has so many amazing talented musicians in them. Music has such a huge wide scope, imagine if all these musicians given a chance each to make music, how much amazing music can be created ! 

Right now with my headphones on, I can be me. Listening to the strum to the guitar, the flowing piano, the beating drum, creating the perfect harmony and then the voice of someone, someone we don't know but it feels like we do, in that moment it feels like we know the person on the other side the speakers. Everything kind of starts moving inside of you and the music feels almost real. I can separate from the world and just feel the music and feel good. That is what music is for, feeling good, feeling real.

Me And I Am

“I am.” It is the shortest complete sentence in English Language. Two little words, these are powerful two little words, alone or if something is added to them. They are used by a person to tell their state or condition of being or their feelings about themselves.

“I am lonely.”  “I am happy.”   “I am fine.”  “I am not fine.”   “I am unhappy.”  “I am in love.”  “I am talentless.”  “I am useless.”  “I am bored.”  “I am not me.”  “I am trying.”  “I am a lair.”  “I am depressed.”  “I am tried.”  “I am not unique.”  “I am helpless.”  “I am not pretty.”  “I am lost.” “I am waiting.”  “I am impatient.” “I am not convinced.”  “I am not in favour.” “I am living.” 


All these statements, sentences, thoughts and many more of them are there. They are always there, floating around somewhere in our mind. But most of the time they are left unspoken. Because we are scared, embarrassed, afraid of the consequences we have to face if we say these words. But these words are demanding to be spoken. But sometimes there may be no one to listen. But in the end, we lose control and the dam breaks - the words keep tumbling out, unstoppable because this words had to said no matter what as these these words demand to said and heard. You want to say them, you want to say what you feel. These powerful; little words can change your life. These words tell how you feel about yourself and it may not always be true. You may need that comforting answer which you deserve. It also starts with a short sentence - “You are.” It is important to know how you feel about yourself but is also important to know what someone else thinks of you because your thoughts may not always be correct. Sometimes, you may be very hard on yourself or you may be too biased.

Sometimes while speaking your mind,  you may change your mind.

“You are not alone.”  “You are not a bad person.”  “You are not at fault.”  “You are special.”  “You are not realising what you have.”  “You are my inspiration.”  “You are not trying hard enough.”  “You are beautiful.”  “You are my friend.”  “You are the person for me.” 

It is the time that it taken in saying these words that makes movies or books or life, long and makes our happy endings look unreachable and unachievable. 

Imagine the whole world, so many people living, walking, going on with their life, moving on, everything is progressing. Everybody has this bubble over their head about things they want to say, things they want to hear, things they want to be, things they be and the bubble keeps moving with them too, it never leaves, it's always there. Full of all your unfinished hopes, aspirations, dreams and vulnerabilities. Sometimes when this bubble finally bursts, your story truly begins. You can call this bubble anything -  your mind, soul, heart, anything. You should realise that it is there when whenever you are alone and you feel this hollowness and you have more to think about the imperfectness of your life than about how great it is -- Find Your Bubble and then don't wait till it is unbearable, take a pin and burst it or it will happen on its own anyway. It may be hard but the first step is always the hardest and rest is as easy as air out of a balloon. If you do it now you will your life a little more.   

Me And Iron Man 3

Ok, how should I begin this ? I don’t think that my words will do it any justice but still I have to write about this movie. There are so many thoughts in my head, I had trouble sleeping last night because this was going on in my head. Ok.. so, yesterday me and my friends went to watch this movie. I knew without a doubt that this movie is going to awesome. Because a movie Iron Man in it never fails. And it was awesome but it was so much more than. It was beyond awesome !!

Still my words fail to do the movie ANY justice. The movie had Robert Downey Jr. of course and he does it for me. I mean not only he is a great actor but there is just this full on epic-ness about the way he acts and speaks and I can say that right now he is the coolest actor alive (Zach Galifianakis is next) The movie has everything – cool, witty , legendary, EPIC , FUNNY one liners  you will never forget, a few romantic and aww moments with Miss Potts (they are as gooey and lovable as any moment from a romantic movie), there are a lot of great actors, every moment with the suit is priceless (I just want to touch the suit someday ), there are lot of surprises in movie as well, the action and fight scenes were enough and epic not to mention and there were SO many funny, jaw dropping, unforgettable, priceless moments that made this movie something you can never get over. It is like chocolate or cheese or the smell of your favorite flower or anything truly amazing because you can never get over anything utterly amazing. I mean whoever has written all Iron Man dialogues in all movies must be a true GENIUS !!

My list of favorite moments from Iron Man 3:- 

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•          When Tony Stark says it's moments like these when I realize how            much of a superhero I am.
•                    The prodigal son returns ..
•                     Where is my sandwich ?
•                    The scene when the his house is being targeted and makes Pepper wear the suit . (awww)
•         When all the suits assemble and fight together
•         When he saves all the 13 people from falling
•        When Tony says no politics here just good old revenge
•        When he says that “I threatened a terrorist we supposed be on full security lockdown”
•               When Pepper fights Mandarin
•       When all the suits explode like fireworks
•        The limited edition Dora watch
•       The one in which Tony is tied to a bed and he wait for his to come saying 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 … this one is so funny
•             The one when Ponytail express say, “I hate working here, seriously these guys are so weird.” 
•      Everybody needs a hobby”
•      I Am Iron Man

             ........... there are soooo many more but they may be slipped my mind

SO, the movie was indescribably amazing and funny which you can’t stop thinking about after the movie has ended. The movie keeps going on in your head and you don’t want it to stop. Every moment of the movie was thoroughly enjoyable and you will NEVER EVER regret watching this movie. I mean those of you have not watched THE Iron Man movies, have not known what REAL cool is, you know only a blurry outline of and these movies get the closest to cool EVER. I so gonna watch this movie again and again till I remember every single dialogue from this movie(that’s what I do with a movie I like especially a superhero one)

I just read in the newspaper that Gwyneth Paltrow said that there will be no Iron Man 4, I kind of guessed it at the end of the movie but I was desperately hoping this was not true. BUT IT IS !! This can’t be happening !!! Marvel you can’t do to this to me !! :’(  I guess Iron Man will there in The Avengers 2, I hope he does but his coolness requires a whole movie. Well, I guess every good thing has to end but it is the Iron Man Movies – it is a GREAT thing. I am to take time getting over this news meanwhile I am going have a Iron Man movie marathon.

Me And Clapping

If you're happy and you know it

Clap your hands 

I had a dream this morning and everybody was clapping and I was clapping too. I personally find clapping uplifting, clapping makes me happy and I know this makes me weird also. I mean who gets happy after clapping ? Apparently  ME !!! Weird huh ?? But who isn't.

Ok, so clapping, how random is that. It is like whenever I clap, I smile and I am happy. And I obviously don't  clap for no reason, I know I am crazy but not that crazy. Whenever I see someone sing amazingly or dance awesomely, I clap and I will clap even if no else does, if wouldn't be embarrassed. I mean if a person is on the stage showcasing their talent for you. Clapping is way of showing your appreciation and encouragement. It is way of showing that you like what the person is doing, it's like you are giving something back. I mean who ever invented clapping must be awesome.

Clapping involves two things, the clapper and the thing being clapped at and not mention two hands. You put your hands together as result of liking what you are seeing. Clapping should be done if you enjoy what is happening and I hate those stuck up people who don't appreciate the person doing a good job - they either make fun of them or fold their hands and just stare. Unpleasant people !! Whatever so as I was saying - I love clapping and keep clapping. 

Me And People Around

I know the title is weird but it is the only thing that came to my mind. I see a lot of people around, in school and in other places. Sometimes I just like to sit and observe people, their behaviour, their reactions. From what i have seen so far, everybody is different because I am yet to find two exactly alike which to me can only occur when either both or one of them are pretending.  

So many people are around you everyday. But we are so busy in our lives that we don't see other people. Some of these people can actually solve your problems, make you laugh, teach you something you could never have taught yourself, they can be the change in your life you need. There are so many different types of people in the world... I just want to know them all. Knowing them gives you experience. You may not need to know a lot of people to learn a lot of things, a few people around you can teach a lot too but depends on the person too. What can be more interesting than a person ? Because it is only a person who makes interesting things in world and the only thing more interesting than an interesting thing is the person who makes it.

 

We see so many everyday and we also forget the same number of people everyday. Perhaps you will remember a person you saw in the market today who was wearing a funny or an interesting t-shirt or you will remember a person you thought was cute or a person who helped you. But you can also forget a man who used live down the street in your earlier neighbourhood or a person who once teased you and you felt really bad, you didn't know why. We unknowingly always tend to forget all the sad and bad things from our life, because in the end nobody wants to unhappy right ?? 

Seeing and meeting are two different things. You see people walk by in a busy street but when you talk to someone, get to  know that person - you meet them. Meeting happens everyday, everywhere and every time. It is something nobody can avoid. It is one the features of life telling us - it goes on. You meet new people around you, it is a necessity in society. Meeting happens in so many different ways and it also changes in so many ways by meeting these people. Meeting one of the most beautiful and exciting activities in life. Maybe not always exciting, as the people who are supposed to meet can be less than willing but meeting happens eventually. And they can be interesting for a third person who is watching.
Every second new people meet. It's what we see or read everyday in books and in movies. Meetings are truly the beginnings of all stories ever written or seen. Every great thing starts with a meeting. They are the beginning of EVERYTHING.

Me And Bus Stop

I found myself standing on a bus stop, doing things people do standing on a bus stop. Kicking dirt from our feet, observing people go by -- getting on with their lives and at that point of time your life is at hold it depends on whether the bus is going to come or not. All you can do is wait, watch other people live and maybe glance at you occasionally but they keep going but you are static, you cannot get on, you have to stay and wait.

  


Sometimes you keep on waiting and waiting. Kicking dirt and stones gets boring, looking gets monotonous as you have grown used to the surroundings now, people don't surprise you anymore.

You don't know whether your bus will come or not. At that moment  life presents one of the most toughest dilemmas. You can either keep waiting for the bus that will take you to your destination, it might come .. maybe it got stuck somewhere but it isn't then you keep waiting and then you will be late and you just might miss what you wanted. Or you can leave the bus stop and start looking for other ways in which you can reach our destination, you may not find one.

It may so happen that the bus has already crossed the stop and maybe you were just a minute late or something, you are then waiting in vain. Or maybe the second you make up your mind and leave the stop, a second later the bus comes and you miss it because you don't see it now, you have already left, if you had waited a second longer you might have reached your destination.

But a time will come when have to make a decision, it may be hard, both choices equally hard but you are a choice maker and you make your choice .... who knows it is the right or the wrong one ?? But is the choice that you made and you have to live with it. Better Make It Count.


I thought of this while actually standing on a bus stop. Its an example how even the simplest things in life teach you so much, but have to see the other side of the picture life is showing you and you will see IT .... in that moment while you are standing on the bus stop where every second matters and you have a choice. You might learn a thing or two.

Me And New Beginnings

I find beginnings to be everywhere in our life, we sometimes choose to ignore it and continue our living as usual but sometimes it hits us "Smack!!"  right on our faces and no matter how hard try this time we cannot continue living life as usual because we know something different from the rest ......

       

It's a beautiful morning .... a new beginning for you and for everybody. What's so new about it ? The night is over, you have woken up from your dreams, it is new day and a new beginning as everything that happened tomorrow is the past -- all the insecurities, fear and everything that has held you back is THE PAST now. If you want you can let go  everything and begin your life with this new beginning that can make you everything you ever want to be.

Beginnings are to be began first. If you don't begin a beginning then how if will continue the journey that is ahead of you.

Beginning come is every shape and sizes. Imagine yourself as a mere spectator walking down the road a beginnings. Sun is shining, you are walking in slow comfortable pace. You look to your right and see the various beginnings that life brings to you. A book which changes all your beliefs and dreams, a books which understands you .... New day in a new class. A Choice not mention a hard one but when its made - its a new beginning. The birth of a small child - a new beginning of a wonderful life for the child but also for the parents. A painting, a song anything. Beginnings sometimes also start at the end of somethings - end of school, a night, a breath, hesitation, misunderstanding,  a minute and maybe someone's life.

      One the most beautiful beginning come when you lay your eyes on a person who you know you will never forget. Just one look, glance, one smile and its began. The person who will matter is there and you have found that person and its the beginning about your love something that has no end only a beginning.

Beginning are not hard to find but they are difficult to understand. Sometimes is tough to keep going on but all you need to do is look back at this beginning right here and it will be clear why you started and why you need to keep going on.

This blog, this post is a new beginning for me and I hope I have an incredible journey ahead and it never ends....
While I keep posting about what I think about something, anything and everything.