Lack of Great Ideas

Open Microsoft Word. This is how great things happen. Blank. Now is when a life changing idea comes in. Baam! Fast forward to success, glory… HAPPINESS. No great idea yet. Too experienced in the reality of life to wait for it (the idea). don’t really want an idea, just a distraction, something to take mind off , its too painful out there right now. I guess that is what happens when your joy is dependent on things and people who are not you. When people or circumstances sometimes unconsciously have more influence on how your day goes than you. We are fools after all. We do this to ourselves. We know so much better than to do this, but can we help it?

Maybe life is the idea we all are looking for, life. Life, the only constant in life. The only thing that stays is that we are living, breathing, being crushed under regrets, sorrows, disappointments but yet living. Looking the same on the outside, going on (sort of). How brave. Fears, failures, regrets, faults, mistakes, incapabilities but then there are hopes, dreams, expectations, beliefs, more hope. Who wins? The lucky ones I am guessing.

Can you stop yourself from feeling? Is there a medicine which can do that, I am willing to search mountains and oceans alike for it. God know how I have willed myself to give it up. Looking, searching for a way out, finding none. The damnest things – feelings, which apparently distinguishes us from animals, weakens us in ways nothing can. Still the stupid hope persists. If it goes away then everything will automatically be better. Its not gonna happen, go to sleep, tomorrow is another day, wait for your great idea.

I Want To Do Something

I have never been much of a crier even right now I know I won't cry but I can sense something close to tears in my eyes, it is either that or my eyes are just hurting as a result of sitting in front of my computer for way too long. The thing is I feel sad. There is no reason for it and then there are too many reasons. I feel like time is running away and am stable, I fear wasting my life way to much that I am not even living it. I feel like am not getting enough opportunities to show myself to world, I know that is really selfish but I really want to do something that people can see, recognise, appreciate. I sometimes feel really desperate for doing something but I don't really do anything, that really frustrates me. I sometimes get irritated to people due to this and that is not good i know but I just can't help it sometimes. I feel like I am waiting for something big, momentous to happen to me and when I doesn't happen I feel depressed. I know it's not possible for  something to happen to me, I mean it's not a movie or anything but the thing is I watch too many movies and I see a lot of people and I have way too many expectations. I see other people and it is good see those people doing so many great things but I want to do great things too. I know I can be wrong too but this is one the reasons why I am sad there are others too but I think this is big enough for know. One more thing I wanted to say that the the little things that happen do make me happy but soon wear off but I become really happy for a while and I like it. For the time being I stop looking sad because everybody doesn't have to know you are sad, they probably won't even care because in the end only you can make your self happy so if happiness taking too long to arrive, in the mean time JUST SMILE. I know it's hard and to will probably look like Sheldon Cooper trying to smile but I will make the people you love happy and it is sometimes worth it.

THIS NEVER FAILS TO CRACK ME UP !!

Me And Music

I can't sing. I can't play an instrument, I tried to but that didn't work. But I listen to songs. Does that mean that I am not a part of the music ? 

Right now, in this moment thousands of people are listening to music right and I am one of them. Aren't we all connected in some way. Music means so many things to so many different people. To some it is a way to earn a living, to some it is an escape, to some it is a drug, to some it is a source of happiness and enjoyment and to some it is life.

These days there are so many forms of music right now and all we are doing is judging what is good or bad. What is on the charts, what sucks and what rocks, what deserves to be popular and heard and what is crap, what gets an award and what doesn't. We all forgot that it is still music. It doesn't matter if some else hates it or loves it, if nobody listens to it unless whenever you are feeling like crap, tried, angry, confused, lonely and even happy or excited - there is always a song you can listen and feel that resonance from your soul and everything will be alright.

Music wasn't meant to counted as many singles or copies have been sold but how many souls it touched or how many people it made happy or how many people people danced alone or together listening to the music coming out.

Sometimes I just lay down and listen to music, any kind of music and after I sit up and turn the music off, I feel better. That is the power of music, that is what music is. I don't care what or which music it is unless it makes it makes me sing along and feel what the music made to feel. I know I can't comment on music like this as I know nothing about it but I listen to it. 

Music is everywhere. In so many different and pure forms too. A mother humming to put her baby to sleep, that is also music, you can't calculate it's worth by how many people listen to it or many awards it has got. It is pure and true, it is music.

I am not against the music on charts, I love those actually. There are some many popular artists and their music is amazing.

There is so many talent in music these days, I mean how many singers and bands actually exist today ? And all these music reality show has so many amazing talented musicians in them. Music has such a huge wide scope, imagine if all these musicians given a chance each to make music, how much amazing music can be created ! 

Right now with my headphones on, I can be me. Listening to the strum to the guitar, the flowing piano, the beating drum, creating the perfect harmony and then the voice of someone, someone we don't know but it feels like we do, in that moment it feels like we know the person on the other side the speakers. Everything kind of starts moving inside of you and the music feels almost real. I can separate from the world and just feel the music and feel good. That is what music is for, feeling good, feeling real.